Some things must be done but there's always a right time for it.
I will just have to put up with not sleeping well and having no peace of mind and heart for a few more days.
I will not give up until I feel my life seems right and I can live with myself.
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sexta-feira, 21 de agosto de 2015
domingo, 16 de agosto de 2015
All in
I never wanted this to get to this point, if someone told me my life would be has it's right now I wouldn't believe it.
The regrets and barriers never been so high, so high I can't see how I can get over, it's too long to go around, it's to deep to go under, so I only have two choices right now. Be the boy who I was until now and run away from that barrier or be the man I know I can be and smash trough it.
That's why I train every single day now, I feel my body reaching it's limits but I have to keep going, I need to discipline myself to finally become a man.
I need to prepare myself for that moment, that second chance, that might never arrive and if never arrives it's just fate telling me that actions have consequences and that I need to be stronger to never loose it all again.
I have always been weak and just OK with it but no more! I will risk my body mentally and physically just to have the smallest of chances of having a second chance at life, correct the bad things I done and perhaps understand the right path other than this dark one I am walking.
I know the odds are greatly against me of even having the chance to correct my past mistakes but not fighting for it and ignoring it never got me nothing, only a bubble to make myself feel better and feed this illusion that everything is alright.
It's all or nothing right now and I don't have anything left to loose.
The regrets and barriers never been so high, so high I can't see how I can get over, it's too long to go around, it's to deep to go under, so I only have two choices right now. Be the boy who I was until now and run away from that barrier or be the man I know I can be and smash trough it.
That's why I train every single day now, I feel my body reaching it's limits but I have to keep going, I need to discipline myself to finally become a man.
I need to prepare myself for that moment, that second chance, that might never arrive and if never arrives it's just fate telling me that actions have consequences and that I need to be stronger to never loose it all again.
I have always been weak and just OK with it but no more! I will risk my body mentally and physically just to have the smallest of chances of having a second chance at life, correct the bad things I done and perhaps understand the right path other than this dark one I am walking.
I know the odds are greatly against me of even having the chance to correct my past mistakes but not fighting for it and ignoring it never got me nothing, only a bubble to make myself feel better and feed this illusion that everything is alright.
It's all or nothing right now and I don't have anything left to loose.
segunda-feira, 20 de julho de 2015
Crossroad
I feel like I am stuck in a crossroad, not knowing the best way to improve myself to be the person I know I can be.
Better, stronger and someone I can be happy with.
I can see the paths given to me clearly, now it's up to me to decide the best path.
Whatever happens I won't give up on my morals because nothing is worth losing yourself.
For now I want to follow the warrior path that my dojo offers and follow those principles and morals that speak so much to me.
I just feel sooner or later fate will test me and I want to be up to the challenge whatever it may be.
I don't want to loose something valuable again just because I was weak.
Better, stronger and someone I can be happy with.
I can see the paths given to me clearly, now it's up to me to decide the best path.
Whatever happens I won't give up on my morals because nothing is worth losing yourself.
For now I want to follow the warrior path that my dojo offers and follow those principles and morals that speak so much to me.
I just feel sooner or later fate will test me and I want to be up to the challenge whatever it may be.
I don't want to loose something valuable again just because I was weak.
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